Journals & sadness

I’ve recently rediscovered the importance of journaling, with a timely reminder from Anthroyogini. I generally use my journal for inspirational quotes and sometimes pictures, as well as for organising my thoughts on a subject. It’s the latter that I often forget about. Blurting out within my journal what I’m afraid to speak aloud helps clear my mind. It organises my thoughts to a point where I can discuss it with someone else or let it go. I can go for days obsessing about something, yet as soon as I write it in the journal it’s gone. Out of my mind, no longer obsessing.

For the last week I’ve been feeling really down, there’s a deep sadness, I just want to cry all the time and I’m so tired, with no real reason to be. This has happened from time to time and when I’m in this state I tend to avoid journaling about it. Things that have pulled me out before are ignoring it, hoping it will go away. Today is the first time that I have gone with it and not forced myself to feel cheerful and interact with the world. I know I can’t hide forever but for today it feels really good.